When I was in one of my depressions, I remember the feeling of being trapped in my body and mind. All I wanted to do was get out of my body and the sensations I was feeling.
Like there was a heavy boot on my chest.
Like my brain was so foggy that I couldn’t answer simple questions or perform simple tasks.
I started googling like crazy on my phone. With a sense of urgency, I was furiously typing: How do I get out of depression? How do I get out of depression NOW? How do I get out of depression RIGHT NOW?
When I think about it now, it’s almost comical. But in the midst of it, I had this sense that I couldn’t handle one more instant of feeling that way.
Of course, the googling didn’t work. In fact, I was doing “all the right things” and it wasn’t “working.”