Presence

I’ll tell you why this picture means a lot to me .

Today I took my youngest (of 4 kids ) to the children’s museum .

And I loved it. I was present. I enjoyed crafting with her.

But it wasn’t always that way.

I used to resent it all. I used to be bored with blocks and coloring and trains. I wanted to love motherhood, but I didn’t.

And with that came deep shame. And a deep desire to love motherhood, to feel fulfilled, to get out of survival mode and into thrive mode.

So that’s exactly what I did. It wasn’t easy. It took time and persistence and patience and motivation.

But I did it. And it was worth all that work and more. Because my experience of motherhood now is completely different than it was before.

This picture brings me JOY.